Nightmare - Gaye Adegbalola (4:00)

This is one of the most powerful songs of forgiveness ever. Gaye is winner of the W.C. Handy Award (now known as the Blues Music Award), a founding member of Saffire - The Uppity Blues Women, and lives the mission of finding and bringing peace through music. She sings and tells this haunting story, while Rory Block plays an awesome acoustic slide guitar, sings background with Gaye, and arranged the vocals. Jerry Marotta adds riveting percussion. "The moment I wrote this song, I felt a surge of relief. Peace followed forgiveness. I hope it will do that for other survivors. … Rory's music and interpretation, for me, heightened the power," says Gaye. The song is from Gaye's CD, Bitter Sweet Blues, and appears here courtesy of and with special thanks to Bruce Iglauer, President of Alligator Records (www.alligator.com). For more of Gaye's insightful writings and information about her CD's and schedule, see www.adegbalola.com. Song Copyright: Gaye Adegbalola and Rory Block, Hot Toddy Music, ASCAP, 1999; Recording Copyright: Alligator Records & Artists Mgmt., Inc., ALCD # 4870.

LYRICS: NIGHTMARE

I have the same old nightmare
Makes me scream and cry
You come to me all in my dreams
I'll be haunted til the day I die. . .
You said you couldn't help yourself
And I was so very young
How could I protect myself
From a child molestin' son of a gun?
From a child molestin' son of a gun?

Chorus: I can forgive you but I can't forget
The way you broke my trust
It was a deep dark secret of the family
We were split apart by your lust

I'm still trying to understand
How you took me when I was a child
I couldn't tell nobody
I felt dirty and scared at the time. . .
You kneel down asking for forgiveness
You bow down and pray
But I still live in anguish
I can still hear the words you say
I can still hear the words you say

Chorus: I can forgive you but I can't forget
The way you broke my trust
It was a deep dark secret of the family
We were split apart by your lust

Bridge: I relive those moments
I relive the fear
How can I be released
Will the memory disappear?

I can forgive you and I want to forget
What happened to us way back then
But now that it's out in the light of day
I hope the suffering will finally end

I'm working to find my peace of mind
I held on for all of these years
Thank God I didn't go crazy
Now I can break down in tears
Now I can break down in tears

Chorus 2x: True forgiveness means I try to forget
Resurrect the family trust
Now that it's out in the open
I think my soul can finally rest

I forgive you
I forgive you
I forgive you

I forgive you. . .